opening up

Being misunderstood is one of my greatest fears. Maybe that seems dumb to you, but don’t misunderstand me. Maybe it's one of your fears, too.

Sharing what you think is scary. You think what you think for a reason. Because of your background and your experiences. When other people misunderstand what you think, they essentially misunderstand your life/who you are/who you were/whatever.

I’m scared to say what I think online or even worse, in public to real faces.

What if they get offended? (always thought people got offended too easily)

What if they tell me I’m ignorant? (why do I care what others think about me?)

What if I get unfollowed? (#yikes)

What if I ruin my reputation? (cue Joan Jett)

But what if…

Someone agrees and we form a new friendship?

I help someone else open up?

I take off my bland visage and become who I really am?

What if I finally feel free?

Hardly anyone knows who I am. Probably hardly anyone knows who you are. Is it important to share yourself online? Maybe not. But is it bad to bottle yourself up? Yes.

My friend told me about this quote, and I think it's fitting: "That is, to be ourselves cause us to be exiled by many others, and yet to comply with what others want causes us to be exiled from ourselves." - Clarissa Pinkola Estes

I feel bottled up. I’m shook. Pop. Fizzzzzzzz. Here I am.